FROM 12-16-03

make the sadness go away
let sleep come
call my insanity - just what it is
only I understand
only I really know
and it doesnt even matter
the painting couldnt be more vauge
couldnt be a more useless expression
my heart has been murdered
it wishes to be forgotten
it cannot feel anymore
it cannot dream anymore
it swallows nothing
hides behind nothing
echos nothing
it has no life force feeding it anymore
its tired, weakened....dead really
no feeling
just numb
numbed by the pain of loving too much
numbed by the pain of loving you..........