FROM 12-26-03

So blessed - yet so unhappy
feel like a shell with nothing inside
dont know yet what im supposed to be
but I feel im growing somewhere despite
know that im becoming more myself
as messed up as that may be
I have to accept my fate...and my tragic weakness
I am trying, stumbling, then crawling
towards whatever there is...waiting for me
THE MOMENT OF EMBARKING
when everything is dark
when new may be scary
and I know for certain what alone really means.