JOURNAL ENTRY FROM 12-12-03

Tonight I sit with a war going on in my throat. My heart is a mess. And my mind, pondering all things dense..........dense - slow to understand, stupid. Like a fool wandering into darkness.....that seems to be me these days. Do I not get it? Why do I try to explain, share, write....express this? An idiot that chooses his own misfortunes wont ever walk in the light.....so why do I care - why try? Leo the Lion on his throne - awaiting his parade of honor --- what shit! I scream out questions, while plugging my ears so not to hear the answers that I dont want to hear. A fool wandering into darkness - and setting up camp.......