Rapture

desperately in love
and wanting to give
all that I am
to you
for eternity

trip me, watch me fall again

Ive opened the window
and invited you in
to see the things
that i can never say

the light that shines on your doorstep
is only the leftover gravity
of the moment you sunk my breaking heart
bound by lies
and tangled in their memory
we are now slaves to our fate

like a witch, I burned
for a crime so completely misunderstood
in the process I tripped over something real
the immense price for loving a delusion
but secretly I laugh
at what they could not break

I have swallowed this
I have been living this

and where have you been?
are you still burning too?

do you have the strength to go on?
how far can you carry this?
and to what end?

tell me...because I could go on forever.

trembling love

you and I
trembling love
dance with me
in the deep dark
moonless space
hold me now
breathe into me
make me see
make my light melt
we need nothing here
but the two of us
save my light
you seem weak and frightened
but i will shine enough for the both of us
ask me if I would give unto you
and into you forever
my answer...yes, of course
i bleed everyday already
and its never too much
too much for you to ask
or for me to give
your touch
your embrace
your smile
the gold in your eyes
...all that I will ever need
its enough
its enough to make me love forever...

beautiful Gerard looking at me...

san antonio, sept.24th

let go

give Persephone her colors back
and let the angels blend them with blue
you've make the water pool inside her eyes again
that your cruelness has dyed a deeper hue
see her catch the rays of red still
while your blanket of black covers the moon
its sad that every color in her rainbow
somehow winds its way back to you...

lessons

Pull out the claw
because the black cord is unwinding
its whipping freely now
and trailing in your tracks
you have crossed over black tar
and into some frozen dream
the river that flows west
somehow bent by summers' cracking barrenness
sends you somewhere else
the long road away from me
I stand now in stagnant water
that used to pulse and pool
but at least you left me something
my knowledge and my dignity

~Love eternal~

I am so happy in this place
dancing in this light
enveloped in your gentle spirit

you mean everything to me
my beautiful beloved
my infinite strength

nothing could ever compare
to your embrace
your kiss

your love...


(to my beautiful family: Joey, Shanti and Tristan - I love you:)

shine pretty girl

step inside
fill it up
you are free
but you dont see
life waits
will you ask?

you dream in blue
but you wont climb inside
a dragon at your gate
blocking all your dreams
blinding you from your truths

little sister
you still should dream
find the place
where your colors bleed
find the light
and dance in it tonight

your life may be waiting
beyond the gate...

scarecrow

I gave the misers fantastic fantasy
a little of my life
and a penny to throw into the dream pool

I awoke your curiosity
you then tripped over my life

you now live just outside of my halls of hallucitnation
you couldn't help escaping the boundaries of my fiction
to leap right into my lap
where you now lay as still as the dead

you have fallen into a blissful sleep
inadvertently, you have fallen into my dream

I stare
a little taken aback
an enlightened varnish now coating my swollen eyes
for I am now awake
and nursing the dream child

little scarecrow
wake up and dance for me
please dance for me again

just behind the brilliant golden light
lay the buried stones
underneath our illusive rainbow
where we planted the three fates

little scarecrow
dont you see?
you need to awaken now
the light is melting
and I am so close
so close to touching the rain

wake up and sit in my magic lantern
shine for me
so that I may always see
what it looks like
when I am whole

you somehow always make me see
your beauty leaps over my truth
and feeds my undying hunger

you've slid down the rainbow
and into my world
but the roses are wilting
and your golden eyes are closed

wake up...
please wake up
you dont need to change it
the dreams is already perfect.

lighten the fuck up