*diamonds orbiting*

gone for goodnight
wandering aimlessly
the seek finds
diamonds orbiting
the bright light
helplessly hindering
the long midnight
wind up space inside

this thing
mirror regecting me
wrong thing
image disecting me
all things
must go on endlessly
future brings
many things

can we
go on through mirror door
not be
what we were before
by chance see
the diamonds orbiting
above glass sea
the light dreams

downpour

cold October, trembling morning
awakened by monsters overhead
released from the safe haven of soft billowy dreams
and into an indistinguishable gap
dislocated from the procession of time

something calls and cannot wait
lift the veil and we'll go outside
breath exiting in an all too obvious manner
like bitter clouds of frosty air
an exalted chain linked to fate

walking into the rain
underneath a canopy of grey-blue furry
a sobering kind of gravity
unpenetratable darkness closes in
and outlines a truth so beautifully unkind

the enchanted fragments of maya's veil
drip with dangerous delight
laughing, falling downward
the veracity stings my eyes
overwhelming are the tears of initiation into sight

contaminated portions of cumbersome sleepiness
dislodges like melted glass from my eyes
a heart smiles underneath without trepidation
as I struggle to see no more
...how astonishing it is to have found daylight in a downpour

to my beloved

For so many years, I have loved you
and have been blessed to be by your side
You light up the darkest of places so brightly
that without you, I could not see

You are a constant source of inspiration
You live your life so beautifully
...you give so selflessly
without thinking of you want in return

For so many years, you have given me strength
the strength to look down my well
and dare to dream
of changing what I see...into something beautiful.

I look in your eyes
and find peace
I kiss your lips
and feel joy
I wrap myself up in your arms
and know that I am home
You are everything to me...
and I am nothing without you.

I love you...

"Parting by Boris Pasternak"

From the threshold a man looks in,
He cannot recognize his house,
Her departure was like a flight
And everywhere are signs of havoc.

All the rooms are in chaos;
Tears and an aching head
Prevent him from seeing
The measure of his ruin.

Since morning there has been a roaring in his ears.
Is he awake ir dreaming?
Why does the thought of the sea
Keep pushing into his mind?

When the great wide world
Is hidden by the frost on the window,
The hopelessness of sorrow
Is even more like the desert of the sea.

She was as near and dear to him
In every feature
As the shores are close to the sea
In every breaker.

As after a storm
The surf floods over the reeds,
So in his heart
Her image is submerged.

In the years of trial,
When life was inconceivable,
From the bottom of the sea the tide of destiny
Washed her up to him.

The obstacles were countless,
But she was carried by the tide
Narrowly past the hazards
To the shore.

Now she has gone away;
Unwillingly perhaps.
The parting will eat them up,
Misery will gnaw them, bones and all.

He looks around him.
At the moment of leaving
She turned everything upside down,
Flung everything out of the chest of drawers.

Till dusk he roams about
Putting back into the drawers
The scattered scraps of stuff,
The patterns used for cutting out,

And pricking himself on a needle
Still stuck in a piece of sewing,
Suddenly he sees her
And cries quietly.